negrodamus... negrodamus

this is fucked up.. sumhow.. gua dah nampak dah nih coming.. gua baru balik daripada trip gua ker never never land.. no no.. gua tak amik crack.. jgn salah paham bai.. in the end best jugak laa although gua kena fly solo utk trip tuh.. tunggu sgpore mate gua iaitu uda kat JB.. pastuh gua kena fly solo balik... if this is the last time gua akan pegi sgpore for j's.. gua sgt puas hati bai.. apsal?.. sebab finally gua dpt jugak beli sumthin worth it.. walaupun bukan the real concords.. tapi 11 low pun dah kire puas hati.. sebab di zaman ebay byk fraud dan di zaman fake dan j's susah nak mati nak dpt yg ori... kire accomplishment sial.. sebab gua bukan ade duit nak pegi jepun or US or at least philippines.. kalo gua de sen nak pegi tokyo bai.. tuh lain cite bai.. tuh lain citer...

anyway... gua rase kecewa jugak .. sebab all the 13 yg gua nak dah takde.. jadik frustration tuh tak bole sorok laa.. kalo laa gua pegi 1 week ealier ker.. ataupun 2-3 week earlier musti kewl.. tapi nak buat camner.. cumer gua tak bole sorok gua kecewa.. sumhow , in the mids of dissappointment gua rase lega jugak.. sebab kalo gua pegi pastuh semua menda ader.. shit man.. i'll be broke.. lebih broke daripada diri gua yg sedia miskin.. kalo sekarang gua makan sekali sehari.. mayb time gua balik pastuh.. gua makan sekali seminggu.. tuh pun ok weekends sebab balik umah... giler sial.. some shit gotta stop.... lebih kurang ferrari bai.. diorg suck.. so diorg decide nak pakai keta baru dan tunjuk semua org who's ur daddy.. tapi tuh pun gua tatau bole jadik ker tak....

well.. gua dah lama tak post.. actually gua nak tunggu sampai gua bole upkan gamba kasut kasut gua (kasut - kasut ppl.. plural.. kasut'S'.. kakakkakakak)... tapi sebab kamera takde dan gua pun dah takde hphone yg bole tangkap gamba (yer.. semuanyer gua jual.. kakakakakak) jadik gua post ajer laa text.. gua tau kalo ade gamba lagik bess.. gua tau .. lu igt aper.. tapi dont worry... these past weeks gua on a job hunt.. so far biaser ajer.. takde yg bess pun.. back up plan.. the thing about job hunting dan attending interview is.. penat sial.. leceh sial.. gua dah custom sampai gua rase penat giler .. mmg memenatkan.. mase lu org baru start.. yer mmg fun mmg rase excited.. mmg rase cam bess.. tapi after sumtime.. esp. pada gua.. menda menda nih mmg leceh... i'll fuckin reject anythin that huv 2nd interview wit test.... kakaka... but i'll talk bout that later.. this is just sum back up plan for me...kalo everythin tak turn up cam gua plan.. shit man .. hari nih 31hb.. im runnin out of time.. n running out of luck... yikes !!!

gotta be.. yo ..

u know the advert where Mars blackmoon (ok sape tatau siler google) tanyer mike pasal wat makes mike the best playa in the universe.. yg its gotta be the shoes.. baggy shorts.. pastuh mike ckp takde takde.. well i wonder.. kalo mars buat advert yg samer ngan gua... wat makes kenit hepi in the universe?.. is it his gf?.. is it the shoes?.. is it the job?.. his car?.. his friends?.. no mars.. no mars.. yo kenit.. its gotta be the shoes !!!.. kakakaakkaaka.....

well on the eve of hari gua nak turun dan memuaskan hati gua sendiri, gua rase betul sial .. its gotta be the shoes.. kalo tidak takkan laa gua sengkek cam org giler sekarang nih nak makan pun tak cukup, utang keliling badan sebab menda tuh.. kakakkaa.. n guess wat.. gua nak buat lagik.. gua rase sebab every pair every pair.. gua sweat, gua cam org giler, gua keja bai.. so every pair adelah is my labour of luv.. easily put.. gua keja cam org giler, belapar , cam org bodo utk beli... even the journey pun makan usaha dan tenaga yg banyak giler.. kite start dengan beli tiket kat stesen subang for 58.00 pegi balik.. tuka duit kat parade (forex sgt suck sekarang)... all n all tambang nak pegi ajer dah 110.00... shit man.. lu org kena remember to add that to the price yg lu baya utk kasut.. tuh nasib baik gua tak bole kire all the blood, sweat n tear utk pegi sane.. kalo tidak gua tatau berapa nak add kat harga kasut tuh.. sebab tuh biler lu suker 1 beli satu.. suker 2 beli 2.. sebab all that akan kasik a more reasonable price semua sekali....

tapi bak kata org tua tua (gua tatau org tua maner).. 600 KM, 20 hrs journey, 110 ringgit... for a pair of j's ? priceless bai..

still standing....

quite a week.. quit a week.. do i need to talk about myself... ntah .. tatau laa.. but today is thurday.. tapi takde byk menda yg jadik pun so i don't wanna talk about myself... a few notes though.. housemate gua ckp the contender is fo real.. mayb ade sumthin between sly ngan boxing.. yup.. u guess it.. rocky bai rocky.. sebab tuh laa.. cuber lu amik org lain jadik host.. probably tak addicted sial camtuh.. member gua kasik rating must watch.. igt bai.. housemate gua bukan mamat tv sgt.. biler die ckp sumthin camtuh agaknyer laa ader kebenarannyer laaa...

minggu nih slow sial.. slow giler.. mayb sebab gua tau jordan XX tuh mmg ade pig skin.. sedih sial sedih.. one of the most hype n talk about shoe... revolutionary pada design.. lu org bole check post dan dekat 4 post gua mention kasut tuh.. giler babi tunggu punyer laa excited only to get blown away.. thx jordan brand.. thank u... tunggu punyer tunggu habuk pun tadak.. menyebabkan gua takut skit sebab gua ader tunggu sumthin jugak.. yg gua tatau lagik laa ader habuk ker tak.. kalo ader habuk senang bai bole vacumm.. kalo takder nak buat aper.. kakakakkaka.... (buat lawak bobo sebab kepla sendat).. yer lu igt seluar ajer bole sendat.. well actually kalo seluar sendut ader 3 menda ajer.. lu dah gemuk, atau tetiber benda lu beso ataupun bum bum lu beso.. pick one.. kalo kepla sendat.. tak tak.. otak lu tak makin besa.. die sebu ajer kot.. byk sgt udara dlm tuh.. jadik between otak dan space dlm kepla otak lu diorg rase sempit.. rase sendat...

as u can read.. gua tau gua borin.. gua ade keja tapi gua dah borin ngan keja.. atau keja dan borin ngan gua.. gua tatau laa memaner apply.. giler... semalam gua pegi try out sial.. yg gua dpt ?.. keboringan sebab gua buat menda sama jugak.. gua kena amik test.. mase gua amik test tuh gua rase cam frank dlm catch me if u can.. giler bai.. buat menda sama dan sama dan sama.. dan lagi dan lagi dan lagi... pegi interview balik interview pegi interview balik interview.. giler sial.. gua rase kena change dan tanak idup camnih lagik sial.. gua tau its time.. lu org jgn risau.. gua duduk tingkat 14.. yikesssss.....

1, 2 or 3..

camner agaknyer kalo korang diberi opportunity utk tulis segala yg korang rase atau tgk pike dlm satu , dua atau 3 patah perkataan.. tak bole lebih... well.. this is wat came out:

borin. penin kepla. rase nak berak. giler sial. baru pkl 10. lama lagik. nak tunggu sehari. takde keja?. kena senyap. apsal slow. jauh sial awak. hehari camnih. giler. borin. sakit kepla. kenape. kenape. kenape. ujan semalam. sejuk. air masuk bilik. babi slam basah. aku tak basah. bess. mimpi basah. tak jugak. kalo mimpi. musti bess kot. lambat lagik. waaa... . aku kenyang. rase nak berak. takde. kalo berak bagus. buang mase. 20 minit. biler. biler. nak berak. bukan. semua org keja. apsal diorg keja. diorg ade keja. aku takde. kkakakkaka. bos tak bagi. takut aku gantung. aku nak berenti. tapi tak bole. oii... . apsal lama sgt. aku tau apsal. entah. aku tatau. hari nih tau?... mungkin tak. lepas semalam. mungkin tak. bodo aaa. nak pg sgpore. giler. sape nak ikut. minggu nih jb. turun sgpore. tak bole. family affair. alang-alang. abih tuh. borin. penin kepla. borin. apsal takde awek. borin. takde keja. rase nak ponteng. kakakaakakak.. . borang income tax?. sial tak amik. biler nak amik. tunggu results Uni. biler tuh. entah. giler. rase nak kencing. pegi kencing. malas laa. tunggu. borin. sakit kepla. tido bes nih. balik umah. main game. tgk movie. bess bess. jejlan. pegi sgpore?. beli kasut. duit takde. giler. borin. sakit kepla......

final.. final...

it's decided.. damn u jordan brand.. even screw die punyer team member.. gua jordan team sial.. tapi rupenyer XX pun gua tak bole dpt.. patut laa 2 mth ago die tak bagitau gua yg gua tak dpt kasut tuh.. rupenyer gua tak bole pakai.. irony bai sebab gua suker giler laser dan finally because of the laser gua tak dpt beli jordan XX... but sumhow gua rase takper jugak laa.. sebab at least gua bole save jugak duit tuh utk future plannin gua.. gua harap.. sebab future planning gua takes ages sial utk keluar.. ages... n slowly bai.. this is killin me deep inside.. tapi last friday gua bejaya lepaskan skit ketensenan gua.. nasib baik ade group cina nih ajak gua main ball.. so gua dgn eager nyer pegi pkl 8.00 padhal main pkl 9.00.. tuh laa gua giler semangat...

sebenanyer gua tensen sial.. gua dlm rage.. gua dlm kemarahan giler.. jadik gua kumpulkan semua tuh utk gua lepaskan.. main ball ajer dpt release semua menda tuh.. in other word, gua sekrang main ball for luv bai.. kakakka.. beyond comprehension.. gua mmg main for the pleasure of it.. tempat gua bole lupekan semua menda.. gua sgt value sial gua punyer playin time on the court sekarang.. sebab off the court... pain.. on the court .. joy..

semalam on the way back frm giant.. gua lalu depan Unitar.. shit .. gua tgk bebudak jln pada pkl 8.00 p.m then nampak ramai lepak kat dlm building.. pastuh study.. agaknyer sekarang time nak peksa.. giler sial.. kasik gua sentimental tetiber.. rase cam bess plak belaja.. probably they r thinking the same thing.. ataupun diorg pike bess sial keja.. ataupun biler nak kawen.. ataupun apsal awek tuh tanak kat aku.. atau pun aper aper.. tapi gua still rase cam tuh.. best agaknyer.. agaknyer dah tiber time gua utk kembali.. kembali.. one last time bai cam mike.. one final dance.. some help here?...

laser ? fuck nike !!!

u guys probably don't know what laser is ? gua tau gua tau.. kalo korang shoe geek atau at least org yg selalu tgk kasut yg hip dan trendy atau pun korang mamat jual kasut kat PS probably korang tau laa.. ok.. too cut it short.. laser nih laser yg kite bakar kat pig skin utk kasik corak skit kat kasut.. (utk info. tgk kasut jin ngan ayuz.. kakakakkka) did i say pig skin? hehehhe.. jgn gelabah jin.. yer i did... ok actually ader dua jenis laser.. yg diorg experimen memula mmg kat pig skin sebab sumhow kalo korang carve corak kat situh mmg cun.. tak caya lu org pegi carik light saber pegi kandang babi pastuh lukis kat perut die.. kakakakkakkakak..... tapi after sum degree of understanding.. nike buat jugak kat cow skins.. jadik utk tau kasut korang tuh laser atas kulit yg maner.. pepandai la.. (gua tanak ckp sial.. kakakakaka esp : utk jin.. kakakakak)

apsal gua bole cite pasal menda nih.. ok gua admit.. gua is a big dan of laser.. probably sebab gua mmg suker art nih.. lagik lagik kalo kat kasut korang.. unik.. it makes ur shoes.. ur shoes.. lebih kurang cam korang pegi jahit nama korang kat kasut tuh laa cam Player Edition.. mostly gua suker design die.. sebab laser nih cam kolaj bai.. kolaj.. so biler last year gua tgk jordan XX ader laser.. gua really amp.. really amp dan super psyche... dah laa mmg cun.. so gua sedikit pun takde problem.. shit .. its hot.. giler babi hot pada aku.. n then the release.. only to found out.. lepas tuh.. yg XX tuh pig skin kat lace cover.. kat laser area.. tapi yg peliknyer mase gua cite pasal al iksan ade XX diorg tak ckp pun tuh pig skin.. yg membawa kepada satu spekulasi.. so far ade 3 kedai aku usha ade XX.. 2 kedai relaks ajer.. tapi kedai kat mid valley nih siap balut.. ada ka die bubuh pig skin sebab mmg tanak org pegang pegang (make sense ker tak nih).. atau mmg pig skin tapi 2 kedai lain nih tatau... kedai mid valley tuh related ngan kedai klcc.. kedai klcc plak place kasut tuh on the top shelf.. mmg tinggi.. org mmg malas nak amik laa.. (kecuali gua.. kakakkaak)....

before gua jump tuh any conclusion.. gua pun buat sedikit investigation... jawapan nyer?.... well let me put it this way.. i'll now when i'm buyin it.. for now... just let it be..

ehh?..

checkin my stats this morning.. found this:

March 2005: Because of a large volume of applications we have received recently, processing is taking longer than usual. Please be patient; we are doing everything we can to reduce the backlog and will get to your application as soon as we can

guess u guys from the board of graduate studies r readin my blog.. kakkakakakakkakakkaakakka
well wat r u waitin for ?...

monyet bebulu merah...

i dont know about u.. bout normally ader satu, dua or even tiga (or even more) menda kat dunia nih yg buat kite rase inspire nak buat sumthing.. sumthing yg normally kite pun tak pike nak buat.. it depends kepada situation lu laa.. ader org tak penah nak usha pompuan in public.. tapi sebab ader sumthin dah inspire die .. die pun pegi belasah usha semua pompuan yg die nampak in public.. (ok.. gua tak maksudkan sesaper yer..) depend pada org.. so camner ngan gua.. soalan nih ader dua bahagian.. satu bahagian : apekah yg buat anda rase semua menda possible nak dibuat?.. dan bahagian B: ape yg anda buat selepas itu?... kakakaka....

well.. baik gua terus terang.. byk org akan rase inspired lepas tgk sumthin.. atau baca sumthin.. well.. utk gua pun tidak ade pengecualian.. gua tgk dan gua baca.. standard aa.. abih tuh buat aper korang ader mata.. tapi bukan daripada aper yg gua dgr.. tatau.. gua selalu tak pecaya dgn aper yg org cakap.. unless gua tgk sendiri.. tgk.. lihat dan baca.. lawan dengan cakap dan dengar.. ok.. tapi whenever gua rase down atau gua rase gua-againts-the-world punyer time.. gua selalu turn to slam dunk utk dapatkan inspirasi.. yer sedara sedari.. sakuragi hanamichi walaupun pada asasnyer hanyer karakter sebuah komik.. tapi kalo korang lepas baca slam dunk dan masih lagik tidak teransang utk melakukan sesuatu.. gua rase lu org mmg dah tak menghargai the human spirit... maknenyer life sumhow dah manhandle lu org teruk sgt sampai lu rase mcm takder menda dah nak keja.. baik idup gitu gituh ajer.. so penat laa ader org cam takahiko inoue nih cuber serapkan semangat kemanusian sejagat dlm idup korang.. penat usaha die.. better korang tgk olympic.. atau paralimpik utk jin.. kakkakakaka.....

apsal sakuragi.. sebab die fall in luv with the game.. n die keja keras.. where wit all (gua tak sure betul ker tuh) macam mike bai.. in fact walaupun gua rase mmg takahiko ceduk bulat bulat cite kehebatan mike utk diserapkan dlm komik die.. gua ttp rase satu percubaan yg bagus.. kerana? kerana die buat dlm environment org jepun.. maknenyer kalo ader org jepun yg nak jadik mcm tuh pasti takder masalah.. pasti tade masalah.. gua baca buku nih ulang ulang kali.. lagipun die kelaka.. bole dikatakan hampir semua line nyer gua sudah hafal.. tapi gua tetap tak jemu jemu.. .apsal.. sebab lepas abis gua baca 31 volume.. gua ade semangat bekobar kobar utk buat menda yg gua nak buat.. gua rase giler babi besemangat.. coz in the end.. sama cam slam dunk.. die lebih kurang berapa kuat lu sanggup usaha utk dapatkan menda tuh.. itu ajer... spt peraturan pertama pertahanan pasukan shohoku.. bukan teknik tapi semangat....

if u r readin this board of graduate studies.. gua tujukan jawapan bahagian B nih kepada korang... gua tau tak byk org apply nak masuk universiti lu utk direct go for PhD.. gua tau lu org kena layan applications yg datang from all over the world.. gua tau lu org kena keep standard utk kemasukan.. gua tau lu org tak bole biarkan sesaper ajer masuk.. gua tau ader procedures yg kite semua kena ikut.. i am well aware off that.. tapi hear me out.. gua bagi lu reason-reason apsal lu org kena readykan satu spot utk gua kat situ.. bukan everyday lu bole nampak bakat (yer.. bakat) yg dpt mengatasi yasawa... bukan everyday lu org bole dpt budak yg sanggup lontar 20000 bola dalam mase seminggu... bukan everyday lu org bole dpt budak yg sanggup pertaruhkan segala galanyer utk dptkan kemenangan... bukan everyday lu org bole dpt budak yg bole dgr arahan dan execute it sebaik dan sebest yg die bole... bukan everyday lu org bole dpt budak yg betul betul in luv utk buat sumthin....

spt sakuragi hanamichi : "BAPA.. AKHIRNYER AKU DPT LAKUKAN.. AKHIRNYER AKU MEMPUNYAI PEGANGAN YG KUAT"

bintang di syurga

if u have RM 26.01, wat will u do wit it?... wel., im gonna tell u wat i did with it.. pegi jusco.. pastuh korang carik cd nih from peter pan.. bintang di syurga ( yer jin yer.. gua dah beli dah)... kakaka.. n i tell u wat.. mmg puas hati... aku pun dah lama tak beli any cd.. so so far.. bole tahan laa tahap kepuashatiannyer.. then.. the next day.. member gua ajak gua jadik pengapit.. i cant turn it down bai.. biler sumone mintak tolon lu utk share hari bahagia die .. u gotta say yes bai.. sebab nih lebih kurang no-the-honor-is-still-mine-kinda-moment laa.. walaupun dlm keadaan yg tepakse.. sebab gua jadik bidan terjun.. tapi tak kesah laa.. gua tau gua mmg abit biggy skit nak buat menda menda cam nih.. sebab gua nih pemalu.. tapi tak kesah laa.. although i must admit.. kalo kat overseas probably being bestman mmg lagik bes.. sebab lu ader privillege nak buat bachelor party n carry more responsibility than just makin sure ur man look tight during the whole ceremony.. but anywayz.. tak kesah laa... kite bukan kat overseas kan...

how do i describe it?.. hmm .. biar gua kategorikan dulu laa apsal lu org jadik pengapit.. satu sebab pengatin nak match making kan 2 org kawan die (which is not the case, yesterday).. satu lagik nak kasik introduce member die ngan opportunity opportunity lain (which is not the case jugak laa mat).. lastly... sebab member die mmg giler glamour.. kakakaka.. (which is also not the case.. ).. so in between semua kategori tuh.. gua just there as a favor.. utk make sure kawan gua happy dan gua hanyer harap gua tak cacatkan majlis tuh.. gua hanyer harap gua punyer participation tolon diorg laa.. kakakaka...

i'm sure latter min akan kasik gamba die on the net.. so semua org bole tgk camner aa.. by 4.30 semua dah abis.. aper yg gua dpt lepas tuh?.. gua rase cam single plak dalam temph 2-3 jam tuh.. sebab dgn tugasan gua, gua rase cam gua takde awek plak.. pastu ade laa soalan soalan cam biler gua plak.. tuh awek ko ker.. semua org.. minah tuh (aka pengapit pompuan) bukan awek gua.. awek gua bukan tak datang.. tapi tak bole datang.. pastu gua tatau biler gua nak kawen.. most probably korang tatau pun sebab gua nak kawen mura.. kakakaka.. pastuh gua tak suker sial format baru qualifying F1.. gua tatau aper kena mengena die.. gua kena mention tuh.. kakakkakaka.. in the end.. lepas semua abis buat gua rase tak single balik.. dan betapa tak besnyer keadaan camtuh.. menyebabkan gua pg jln OU malamnyer.. sajer bai.. amik angin malam (padhal airkon) utk mengilangkan kekusutan di kepla..

i cant get this outta my head.. hear u go:

Dan aku sifatku,
dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku,
dan aku rinduku

Kutanya malam,
dapatkah kau lihatnya
Perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu

Oh...hanya malam dapat meleburkan
Segala rasa yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu ...

kakakakkakakakka... ( n this special msg goes to the board of graduates studies.. bai.. dah 3 minggu nih.. fucker.. u guys better get it going...)

luv?... a song for moms..

u know how u alwayz want the luv of urlife to be perfect.. to fulfill ur every needs.. ? well fuck that.. if anybody ever come up to u n said that once u found her that everything will be perfect.. fuck them too... there's no such thing... satu menda yg gua belaja sepanjang 2 minggu nih... there's nobody.. nobody n i mean nobody.. k for real bai.. nobody in this whole world ( n i mean dunia yer ppl) would luv u more than ur mother... yes.. i've said it.. i dont know about ur wife though?.. gua ckp strictly kepada bf or gf... face it ppl.. nobody... sebab tuh laa syurga bawah tapak kaki mak lu bukan bawah tapak kaki awek or balak lu..

so right now.. if u r doin all u can to please ur gf or bf?.. stop that n fuck that.. i got a new idea for u ppl.. start pleasing ur mom... n if right now u r 2ndhanding her because of ur gf or bf... shit... sumthin is definitely wrong wit u... hit ur head to a concrete or sumthin... damn it... but dont worry.. i used to believe it otherwise.. dulu pun gua camtuh.. sebab after growin wit ur mom for 24 yrs u kinda huv the same idea.. kakakkakaka... but recent happenings.. menyebabkan gua sedar kembali.. instead of finding luv.. u should let luv finds u.. n in fact.. its already there... only u didnt realize it.. u r not looking for luv.. u r lookin for partners.. so stop wit all the bullshit about the one n all.. fuck man.. neo is the one.. takder org lagik dah... i'm not bitter bai.. dont get me wrong.. it is just the truth.. (yer jin.. u should start lookin for a partner.. i repeat.. a partner bai...) n i know i post two times in hour space.. fuck that.. im out!!!

persimpangan dunia...

every once in while... i will alwayz look back... of wat has happened... wat fuck up n wat not... n most importantly.. how am i doin now?... to be truthful.. bukan once in a while mat.. i do it every fuckin day.. or every opportunity gua ade a.k.a mase relaks gua.. or more appropriately mase gua takde keja.. which is in fact.. sgt sgt rare as of late.. fuck this man.. fuck bnm.. gua takder laa nak makan gaji buter tapi semua menda nih membuat kan gua letih... n the fact the matters?.. gua hanyerlah a part of the system yg sekarang nih menghadapi byk tekanan sebab the so called senior members n experts dont know jack of wat they r doin.. victim bai victim... bodo sial diorg nih.. kalo tak bole buat jgn amik.. kalo tatau nak buat tanyer.. u dont go n just design sumthin based on ur guts wen u dont know anythin bout it.. this is how plannin r important people.. remember.. if u want sumthin.. u plan bai... tak kesah laa short term atau long term.. but u fuckin plan...

gua plan bai.. gua ader satu long term plan yg gua buat dlm short term period.. kalo lu org baca archive probably lu org tau.. but because i believe org yg baca blog gua nih hanyer laa certain certain org yg mmg kenal gua giler.. so i believe no explanation needed... so far.. im pissed off.. pissed off giler laa.. coz all the waiting.. is killin man.. on one side.. gua ader duit utk amik peksa.. on the other side gua ade email ckp altitudes n XX dah ader.. kakakkakaka.. it's not the shoes bai.. jgn salah paham gua.. apsal gua nak tau decision diorg.. (yes , u board of gradutes studies.. rn't u readin this.. damn!!!)... sebab nih lebih dari tau dpt ker tak.. lebih dari tuh bai.. this is about life.. sebab all this waitin is like puttin my life on hold.. gua tak suker sial.. pause.. freeze.. han solo... frozen...

gua tak suker gua tak bole buat benda yg gua nak buat bukan sebab gua tak nak buat tapi tak bole nak buat bukan sebab tak bole tapi sebab tak tau bole ker tak... (i hope u guys get that).. lu tau laa lu nak buat sumthin.. let say cam usha kasut kat sgpore (bukan nak beli.. nak tgk ajer) then.. korang tak bole buat (sbb gua tau kalo gua usha musti gua beli.. bside the point) sebab gua nak guna duit tuh utk amik peksa yg lu org tatau lagik pun samada lu org kena amik ker tidak... shit man.. nih jeopardizing idup gua sial... gua tak bole buat aper gua nak buat... gua tau gua tau lepas nih org ckp lu tak konfiden ker? tak optimis ker?... shit man mike ckp lu org kena optimis tehadap semua menda in life.. but fuck that.. im optimis because of all my efforts... tapi biler lu tinggalkan semua decision kat tangan org.. thats fuck up.. gua tau main ball pun kena ader luck.. lu bole shoot 20000 times a day pun.. still biler timenyer sampai.. lu kena ader luck.. lu ader konfiden.. tapi lu kena ader luck jugak bai.. wat u r doin... is to minimize the percentage or the probability of luck.. unless u r one lucky bastard... kalo bole kasik 0 percent.. tapi tuh takkan jadik punyer..

in my own opinion?.. the luck factor is still huge... gua rase ader dlm 40 - 50 % kot.. fuck that.. sebab tuh gua tak berapa hepi.. gua try tapi this damn universe is not helpin.. n keep sending me false omens... some help here big guy?... in the end.. it is not about how many shoes u got.. or how many u r plannin to huv.. trust me.. its not about the shoes.. tapi its about puttin ur life on hold.. sebab tuh ajer.. sebab sama mcm lu org ader gf pastuh die tinggalkan lu.. tuh mcm puttin ur luv life on pause mode.. i'll get to that later... (i'm guessin the board of gradute studies esp.. u laurie is not reading this blog anyways.. kakakkakakakakakkakakakakakakkakakakaka...)