heartbeats....

kekadang kite sendiri tak pecaya realiti.. mmg susah nak caya biler realiti tuh bebtul depan mater ajer.. hari nih 1hb.. dlm 30 hari gua sendiri susah pecaya yg gua akan ade anak sendiri.. kalo ikut kata omputih surreal kot.. hehehehhe... cam caya tak caya plak.. tapi itu laa realitinyer.. 30 hari ajer tinggal.. dah laa counting down plak tuh.. tak sangka jugak laaa bukan setakat gua ajer kena anta 9 mth repot utk phd gua.. tapi rupenyer selepas 9 bulan kawen gua sendiri kena repot sebagai ayah.. kelaka jugak bunyiknyer.. tapi seperti biaser semakin berkuasa kite semakin betambah tanggungjawab yg tepakse kite hadapi.. tak caya tanyer spiderman.. jadik yg pentingnyer biler kite deal dgn isu isu dunia nyata.. buat bodo bukan laa jalan yg paling elok sekali...

kite mungkin tak rela atau tak besedia sbb kite berhadapan dgn dunia yg baru.. kite sendiri tak penah hadapi.. tapi menda menda ini laa yg bezakan kite manusia dgn komputer.. kalo komputer korang kena bubuh dlm otak die camner nak mengadapi menda menda nih.. kita tak dipre-program sebegituh... sebaliknyer sebagai makhluk yg ultimate creationnyer.. kite adapt.. dan seperti norma semulajadi.. gua dan org rumah gua mengadaptkan diri kitaorg.. dan seperti 1st parents yg lain.. langkah utama adalah menyediakan aper aper yg patut utk ahli keluarga baru... kitaorg tanpa pemerhatian sesape (maklum laa kat tempat org).. maka kitaorg main sebat ajer laa beli aper aper yg rase cam beshh dan mungkin kekadang agak perlu.. hehehhehe


harap-harapnyer menjelang 30 hari lagik nih semua menda bejalan lancar.. yg paling penting cukup harinyer dpt aaaa cahaya mata kitaorg (cheewahh) ganti tempat dummy bear kat situh.. hehehhee.. itu yg paling utama.. harap semuanyer yg penting dah dicover.. nampaknyer zaman zaman muda gua semakin menuju ke penghujung.. tak dapek laa nak beli kasut utk gua sampai 2 pasang lagik.. lepas nih kena bahagi bahagi plak ngan anak gua.. jadik kurang laa sepasang.. kakkakakaa....

rase gemuruh tok sah laa citer laa.. ini laa keajaiban.. ish ish ish... tadik gua pegi ceramah utk org org yg baru dianugerahkan pangkat professor... (mungkin bole cite pasal nih nanti).. tapi yg paling penting satu prof. nih ketua research group gua yg baru ditubuhkan.. die ckp sudah 17 tahun die keja baru sampai ke tahap nih... tapi die rase lepas die kawen dan dpt anak die rase misi die dah selesai sebenanyer.. die dah pass gene die utk idup selepas die takde.. tak sangka.. dlm 30 hari lagik misi idup gua (seperti pemahaman die) dah selesai.... gua rase only fitting gua dedicated lagu nih utk org tesayang.... sesame laa kite menempuh 30 hari ini... hehhehehe...

Richard Wagner's letters to his lover Mathilde were a mess
He should have quit before he had written the address
They made love on the mezzanine her husband was his friend
Vienna in a fugue-state working on a thing
That when he finished it took almost seven hours to sing
He still found time to write to her his heart-exploding words

Our love surpassed our love so fast
Our love's all wrong our love goes on and on
Our love became our love by name when I wrote it to you in a song
Our love goes on and on
Our love our love

Kafka in his letters to his lover Milena was alive
But he was waiting for a love that never would arrive
Their rendezvous was singular her husband was his friend
She is a living fire she is a reason to live
She is killing me burning only for him
I'll spend my whole life loving her my heart exploding words

Our love surpassed our love so fast
Our love's all wrong our love goes on and on
Our love became our love by name when I wrote it to you in a song
Our love goes on and on
Our love our love our love our love
Our love surpassed our love so fast
Our love's all wrong our love goes on and on
Our love became our love by name when I wrote it to you in a song
Our love goes on and on our love our love
Our love our love our love our love our love