out of luck...

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u probably seen a flick where a bomb is about to explode... and all of a sudden u got 4 seconds to get the hell out... normally they cut into a slow-mo... the hero.. heroin.. and a black dude (selalunyer laa) with an extra throw-in-chick would run out of the building... 4 seconds later which looks like eternity.... everybody is still live... sounds keling-y but that is hollywood... in fact u have a tv series that runs for a whole season in 24 hours... yes an hour for each episode.. which sounds reasonably well since it does take an hour to run an episode (plus minus the advert that is), but still in that one hour, a lot and i do mean a lot of stuff happen... which u can only imagine happening to u in let say ... 15 - 20 years.. or never...?

if u r wondering.. i'm in my 4th second.... where the do's or die's live... and when heroes or (the one??) truly made their mark... if u have seen the matrix.. it takes 3/4 of the flick before morpheus believes that neo is the one... at least... it took about the same time for bruce willis in unbreakable too... again at the very least... it took will hunting the whole movie to realized what he wanted to do in his life... which to some of u single guys out there could be a bit misleading since he chases a girl at the very end.. which is true if u r titi (since titi is the closest to a genius i know).. but in reality u always go for the money no matter what people tell u... i gotta go see about a girl .. cheehhh

i know because currently, if u earn around 4K... it might not be enough since the government just screwed the petrol price to 2.70.... and if u live in selangor... and u huv a non-working wife (which is a housewife), ur household income is actually below the current average of 5K... however, if u earn 4K, u should be happy.. because i am earning about 2450 less than what u r earning... n yes it is in RM.. so no forex calculation there... u could say i am sitting on a lottery ticket.. since i also received allowance over here (and yes that is in pounds).. but the truth is i pissed my 1650 away every month... where...? well 1/4 of it goes to paying my previously owned kelisa.. and 3/4 of it goes to credit card companies and ptptn... in reality.. i actually need around 2000 to get by every month.. so i am in debts each month actually... but a few chip-ins go along way.. hehehheehhehehe

anyway... u should never ever piss ur hard earned money away... especially in the name of luv... people always justify their un-civilized spending on luv... n you and i know that .. it is a total bullshit... but my motto has always been.. do what u like as long as u r happy... for everything else.. there's mastercard.. kakakakakkakakakaka.... ok ok... in my 4 second left, i actually have a mountain to climb.... n trust me it is no kinabalu... or the mountain they used to shoot "vertical limit"... it is an everest.. i hate to say it.. but the look on my supervisor face says it all this evening... n just like hollywood it is the-us-against-the-world moment... u know... father and son... jake and jesus... it's the i play u until 11 type of thing....

4 seconds and i still haven't master the art of scientific writing.. which in scientific world is a big problem... well i truly understand what he meant... as i only read SLAMonline, NIKETALK and yahoo sports everyday... i've stopped reading scientific papers as I failed to make sense of what the hell they are talking about.... I've tried to master the skills.. and in life, u have to practice to get things to work... the first time is always a fluke anyway... but it seems a bit difficult to put myself in a place where i am going to talk shit... and only people who used to talk shit understand... its like explaining how 1 + 1 happens.... which quiet simply can be best explain with a boulier.. not a scientific calculator or a core duo pc's....

but that is a small part of the challenge... quite frankly just the foothill... there is this thing that we call originality and contribution which are entirely missing from my work... well u caught me... i've already been here for almost 3 years and i don't know jack of what i am supposed to do.. kakakkkakakakakakakakaa.... all i know is.. after three years.. i finally realized that i do not belong in this world... i taught i was made for this shit.. but in fact i was digging a hole.... relatively similar to the financial hole i am in at the moment.... come to think of it... i am good at digging holes... which could come handy when heheheheheheheh (this is explicit material that is only suitable for adults -- well not entirely true.... kids are getting pregnant at the each of 14 over here.. and anyway contraception only works 97% of the time people !!) ... well i know that its time to prove myself worthy... and somehow i know that i will go into the slow-mo mode.. and i'll find a way (at least) to get to the top in that 4 seconds.. it will not be a problem i supposed... what concern me is, what happen once i got there..??? u probably heard of scientist wanted to change the world... well if u can call me a scientist.. i just want to get by and earn a few pounds along the way... which seems a bit overboard seeing where i am at the moment.. i could easily get by and earn a few RM by not doing this... well i am too old now to undo anything... i can seek forgiveness but i can't undo the life i've chosen... the bad choices u make will always hunt u in the end....

on that note... gua pun tatau apsal gua tulis entry nih dalam bahsa omputih... kekkekkekeekeke... gua rase agak clueless mcm muka nak gua kat theme park... pelik plak sbb die tgk semua org main tapi die kena kurung dalam keta... aper pun utk menutup cite gua... amik lu the ting tings.. sounds annoying at first but in the end.. it doesn't even matter... kakakakkakakakak