the truth about...

emmm.... i open up wit a "emm..." sbb banyak lagik benda yg tak dpt nak di-figure out sekarang nih... time as alwayz will not be on ur side... entah laa.. this is one of those days, wen i wish semua menda yg needed to be done will automatically settle itself... sebagai contoh.. gua mendapati time yg gua ade utk sort everything before the big date is severly in shortage... kire campur tolak darab dan bahagi.. ade lebih kurang 3 minggu ajer lagik... pastuh one of the damnest problem iaitu tempat tinggal yg gua igt dah settle lebih kurang 6 bulan yg lepas masih lagik haunt gua.. diorg still tak dpt nak figure out lagik.. mane nak bubuh gua..

tatau camner nak kate tuh.. 6 month ago.. gua apply thru this online system.. later to find out yg diorg kena tweak itu dan ini.. later on rupenyer application gua hilang.. kena file new application yg akhirnya pada hari nih tak dpt aper aper jawapan pun... mmg susah dan tak bole laa nak kata aper.. lagi lagi biler org yg kite deal nih berada beribu ribu batu jauhnyer dari kite... jadik cam biaser laa.. from one problem... beribu lagik problem akan timbul.. sebab tuh remember.. to tackle a conflict.. look at micro problem yg korang ble kasik settle dulu.. jgn pegi bantai tackle everything as a whole.. mati sial... sub-components sial.. remember...

as alwayz.. sebab gua akan bawak org rumah.. maka tiada umah bukan laa satu option yg bole dipandang enteng.. in fact.. diorg tak dpt nak keluar visa pun.. kakakakka... so within this 2 weeks... shit gotta happens... sebab kalau tak gua tatau lagik camner nak buat.. in fact as we speak gua tgh pike plan B.. cumer gua giv it time.... its not time to hit the panic button yet... walaupun begituh time tuh sudah semakin dekat...

entah... ade certain problem bole resolve itself in time.. tapi biler time pun bukan sebelah kite.. jadik mmg agak stress... i dunno.. during time time camnih laa rase bes kalo kite ade menda yg kite bole fall back on... sumthing that could keep us positive n motivated... susah sungguh laa.. betul laa org ckp kalo kite nak sumthing tuh betul betul mmg bukan senang utk dpt.. banyak onak dan ranjau yg perlu kite lalui.. tapi betul ka hasilnya akan worth all the wait?... trust me.. it will only get harder from here....

ordinary n everyday...

yeah i know... i huvnt updated my blog for some time.. i should say a long time now... tiber tiber gua rase sgt busy dan takde chances langsung nak pegi abiskan mase di dunia cyber... i dont know.. easily put.. i got bunch of things to figure out... tetiber gua rase cam byk benda yg perlu disettlekan dan perlu perhatian.. esp after the wedding....

gua takde banyak time pun.. firstly selepas ajer wedding tuh.. the next weekend gua dah kena pegi kursus BTN... n how shock i am to find that nowdays.. or modern era punyer BTN skit pun tak macam dulu punyer BTN yg gua selalu kena.. for instance.. upon arrival.. diorg greet lu ngan TUAN or PUAN.. i was amazed n shocked.. but looking at the participant.. mmg patut laa diorg panggil cam tu... semuanyer mmg tuan dan puan... after the wedding i kinda felt the same way.. but come on.. as one of the youngest participant wit zero xp as a gov. servent... it felt wrong... wrongly wrong... tapi tak kesa laa....

gua igt nak membebel pasal aper jadik time camp semua... but i dont huv the space to do so... all n all it was not bad... there r some great issues yg kite pun tatau or couldn't be bothered to know.. yg gua dapat tau.. aper aper pun.. no matter wat.. make sure korang pegi daftar kepada sesaper yg tak pegi daftar sebagai pengundi lagik... itu ajer nasihat beguna yg gua nak turunkan kepada kawan kawan gua yg gua tau liat cam giler nak pegi register...kakakakkakakakakaka.....

then i got back.. pastuh the next day 1st day posa.. n after a while.. semua menda menda yg kite cuber nak elakkan di dunia nih terjadi.. well actually dalam case gua.. satu menda ajer laaa.. i've been avoiding accident since gua ade lesen.. well dah 7 yrs.. but as alwayz the almighty memang nak test kite esp bulan bulan posa nih.. tejadi laa kesah luka yg masih lagik menghantui pemikiran gua disebabkan kebodohan org lain.. gua tgh beratur kat traffic lite pun org bole dgn selamba deknyer langgar.... dah laa on da way nak bukak posa.. yer gua tak nafikan turun turun keta mmg gua rase nak belasah ajer kakak kat belakang keta gua.. tapi sumhow gua tak kesampaian.. gua tau nanti org musti tolon itu kakak pastuh gua kena pukul balik.. kakakakkaka... ataupun sight die menangis penuh penyesalan menyebabkan gua kesian... lagipun org belakang langgar die jugak.... tapi in a way gua still rase salah kakak tuh... kalo korang tgk positioning keta tuh... dan (im not sexist) sbb kakak tuh pompuan semua org bole figure out punyer......

again.. im not sexist.. tapi gua rase pompuan.. atau warga tua should be banned from the road.. yes any road... biar laa diorg nih naik bas... but since minyak akan naik sampai 5.00 seliter.. kakakak jadik semua org akan stop naik keta pun.. jgn luper.. kat malaysia nih.. the rich is gettin richer.. n the poor is getting poorer...

after hari tuh.. gua mmg rase tak berapa sedap badan.. kakaka bukan traumatic atau aper.. gua rase cam the almighty is coming to get me... dah laa gua nak buat passport pun bole kecoh pasal ketidak originalan surat beranak gua yg nampak cam original.. kakakakkakka.... but finally today.. gua rase cam ok sket... rase cam gua bole get on ngan aper yg sepatutnyer gua nak buat... sungguh mencabar jalan nih... nak kawen pun tak sempat merasai kemanisannyer ngan event-event yg tak berapa enak... leher yg tegang bukan benda benda yg tak sepatutnyer... n since sekarang nih bulan ramadhan mmg elok laa kesabaran diuji hingga tahap tak terbatas....

n if u look around u can see wat is happenin... titi ade masalah... house mate gua.. pegi hentam keta lain plak kat trafic lite the next day.. ader org pegi curik taya keta jin.. kakakakakakka.... weird n unpleasent things are happening all around.... but luckily... azan selamat menerima cahaya mata di saat saat kesusahan begini.. tahniah sebab takde komplikasi yg melanda di saat saat genting sebegituh... makes me realize... some misfortunes r designed for some other fortunate events... its a cycle.... i just hope that good times are ahead of me....