almost a fairytale....

this goes to gurlbijak, budak bijak or simply awak.. nih utk finals:

well i did an entry on tiger woods kan.. kakakakak i did last week.. its kinda funny thought.. why? sebab gua rase that was an inspiring moment.. but bukan semua org dpt appreciate it.. apsal? simple really.. n i do.. sebab golf lama sgt.. amik mase 4 rounds.. hours plak tuh tuh close out 18 hole.. jadik org penat.. tuh wait for that magical moment tuh org rase lama.. jadik org tak truly appreciate.. unless lu org really passionate about it...

so last week hari ahad.. i've witnessed another moment of brilliance.. serius.. i was so amp.. tapi its not as fairy tale as it should huv been... for those who knows wat i am talking about.. syabas syabas.. nampak nyer lu org pun rase inspired.. u know wen ade sumthin happen although we r not a fan tapi korang kena bagi respek.. for example wen arsenal was unbeatable last season n u huv to respek that ( don't get me wrong.. i've got nuthin againts them.. fuck u man u + min .. kakakak ) ok laa lebih close wen someone buat sumthin yg giler spectacles dan lu kena respek walaupun lu mmg tak suker org tuh.. shit i dont huv anybody in mind.. but its like that.. maknenyer the ultimate moment.. i am sure tak byk org kat sini fan of schumey or ferrari.. but last sunday was.. it was....

im a fan.. i huv to admit.. im a f1 fan at large.. thats the only sports me n my dad watch together.. so kepada sesepe yg kenal gua.. lu tau menda menda tuh yg represent the bond in my family... watchin f1.. kakakakaa.. (i'll get to that in another post).. lately f1 was (yes.. it was) borin.. u huv all these rules yg simply nak trap ferrari to be less dominant.. it worked .. but after 3 races gua tak rase byk different.. in fact wit out pit stop sekarang ... lu org sure dah tau results by the middle of the race.. normally like last year.. i'll wait incase ader drama ker.. kakkakak.. but now nobody else kan screw up dah.. sebab wat they do is fuckin watch the tires dan check pressure kot.. kkakakakkak

so it was the same case sunday.. dah nak half way.. we huv at the start after quali (cam kuali) 1, mclaren + renault.. the 2 fastest car since pre-season testing.. (by the way i luv the new mclaren.. gua nampak cam keta yg ade edge).. anyways.. after schumey screwed up the 2nd quali.. gua rase cam tak perlu tgk.. sebab gua rase kimi sure run away dan race nih akan jadik over by 1/2 stage... then he was out.. n i was like.. fuck this .. borin sial race nih fo sho.. until the 1st pit stop.. until gua tgk schumey drove like a mad man after that.. until gua perasan sebenanyer ferrari huv sumthin in store that weekend yg semua org tatau... he was 13 n he was driving at a pace that nobody in the field could match... giler bai giler

after 3 races.. n selepas diorg decide nak guna the new car mase last race.. (n diorg suck jugak last race).. diorg giler babi push the development.. baru sedar yg after the end of last season, semua org dah step up.. they were caught napping.. n i dont think after the 2nd quali anythin like that was imaginable.. but sumhow they did.. in between that 3-4 hrs of preperation before the race.. ataupun in between one day after quali 1.. diorg sumhow find the pace... cos its kinda weird sebab 1st quali they were still behind the other two cars.. this is witout fuel ladies n gentlement.. in between schumey punyer brilliance n the team work ethic diorg manage to pull this of.. i tot they were dead n burried.. but sumhow.. he clawed back all those precious seconds.. frm 13 bai.. 13th on the grid.. kimi was out.. which was the 1st sign of a fairytale will happen... or is it?

lap after lap.. after he stop he is 10 ++ secs behind button.. n he was frm 13.. btul ade some retirement.. 2 ke 3 tak silap gua.. tapi die stuck belakang ralf.. he didnt make any move until ralf pitted n die ade empty track.. well kalo lu org selalu tgk f1 (at least ..) or lu org expert.. shit man camner something like this can happens... he's from 13.. ade 2-3 retirement.. die kena tinggal frm the start.. tak potong sape sape.. still stuck.. ader lebih kurang 4-5 laps lebih fuel n by the time die stop die keluar as 3rd on the race..... u cant do the math can u....?

tapi f1 is all about mathematics in the end.. semua menda lu kena calculate.. but that, wouldnt be possible witout sheer will and determination... the team give him the tool.. n he fuckin push it to the limit.. he was 2 second faster than everybody from the 1st pitstop window.. while everybody were busy in that window.. he push push push.. stop.. then push push push again... i've never seen anythin like it. i've been watchin f1 since i was a kid.. n its so hard to see a car.. lapping 2 seconds lagik laju dari org lain for this period of time... unbelievable... he pushed so hard.. even i was at the edge of my sits looking in awe.. this is like a jordan moment.. yes it is.. giler.. im sure even some of the haters were cheering.. everybody.. 12 seconds gap in just 6-7 laps.. pastuh passed button.. n almost everything turned out to be perfect...

almost.. some things r not just meant to be.. he did caught alonso 12 laps frm the end after his 2nd pitstop (which i think was badly time.. they should brought him 2 lap later then he will be infront.. but i guess maths always work no matter wat.. not like luck) .. it is just that he can't passed... well.. the car is fast.. btul.. tapi acceleration die out of corners suck.. suck big time.. so for the most part dlm 12 laps tuh.. i just waited.. but i guess they want to salvaged the season.. so takde sape yg berani amik risk sgt.. sebab it is still to early.. it would be different if it is fo the championship n it is the last race of the season... but still u gotta give credit... shit man.. i was inspired... i was like smiling in the end.. not becoz the team did good.. but becoz i've witness something magical live... (on 8tv lagik sbb lagik laju dari astro)

on a fine sunday nite.. sheer will n determination won.. well.. almost at least.. alwayz remember.. semua salah yg kite buat lepas tak bole kite pike.. schumey was pissed wit quali 2.. i'm sure u huv sumthin that u r still mad about until today.. but that never stop them to push.. never stop them from trying.... n it shouldnt stop u from doing exactly the same... kite alwayz hurt ngan salah yg kite buat time mase lampau.. it costs him the race.. but he'll be back.. die dah make the best out of wat he had... there's always a fairytale ending.. n everytime.. it is just a question of how close u've gotten to it..

good luck....

No bird soars too high...

i promise that i would put some pics up right..? well the problem was .. i tot that would be hell easy.. tapi it turn out not.. kaakkakak.. gua malas bai.. susah takde kamera phone nih.. i huv it once.. but finally i came full circle.. i started wit a cikai fun.. bought 6600 mase die baru keluar.. downhill since then.. rite now end up ngan nokia 8210 balik.. kakaka.. throwbacks bai.. mitchell n ness.. gua ckp sumtime life can be funny like that.. it goes in circle.. kekadang kat atas.. most of the time kat bawah.. i've lost a lot in my past... gua sendiri tatau aper aper.. tapi gua mmg byk barang.. but i couldnt imagine wat i huv know.. just a mere reflection of wat i used to huv.. many of it jadik 2nd hand barang ... jual just to scrap some cash for some months..

it would be good to huv a camera phone.. i guess.. sure sure.. it is handy.. sebab tuh it wouldnt be too bad to spend some money.. i know a lot of ppl will say baik beli digi + phone.. but in real life.. u dont need two seperate things.. baik lu ader satu dan senang nak guna.. i know ppl will complain n shit about the quality.. but fuck it.. it is good enuff as far as nak amik gamba at that spur of moments.. remember bukan everytime kite bole plan for sumthin .....

benda nih ade kena mengena ker or just to fill my blog wit another meaningless post?.. gua pun tatau.. but so far.. gua borin.. gua borin wit this transition period... nak start baru tapi ade a lot of authorities ckp its not the time yet.. kekadang nak forget it n just continue wit wat i huv.. tapi i permits that.. i dunno.. being stuck in the middle is not such a good thing.. u r trap between the matrix n the real world.. kakakakakkaka.. unless the train man kasik lu naik bai.. kalo tidak lu mmg tak bole buat aper.. i am unable to contact my train man... i hope my train man will come thru... i hope i have put enuff cards on the table.. too many things to hope for.. too little time..

so close.. but yet...

ppl huv been sayin that for as long as i can remember.. normally wen u r about to get sumthin n then sumthing unlucky happened yg menyebab lu end up tak dpt semua tuh.. normally it will come out.. i dont know for wat reason though.. tatau la untuk sedap kan ati sendiri ker atau utk menyesali aper yg telah tejadi.. spur-of-the-moment thing.. we huv been dealing wit near misses all our live.. btul kan?.. musti ade sumthin yg penah jadik dlm idup kite yg kite persoalan kan our efforts.. if kite buat camnih camnih.. if kite buat camtu camtu.. we hope that the results would turn up better.. normal normal.. in relationship... in games.. work?.. just about everywhere....

well.. sepanjang idup gua sekarang.. gua try utk eliminates all this misses.. try.. well u can alwayz try .. tapi lu pun tau.. dan gua pun mmg tau.. there's alwayz a limit tehadap aper yg lu nak buat... byk benda tanpa lu sedari ader laa di luar kawalan lu.. a lot of things kite tgk kat dunia nih camtuh.. u can see it happenin almost everyday.. but dont worry.. wat u can do is give it ur best.. biler ko tau ko dah sampai sumwhere dan takder aper lu bole buat utk change the outcome.. lu dah kena rase fully satisfied.. sebab bukan lu yg besalah menyebabkan lu tak dpt sumthin tuh.. i can live wit that.. i be better fo sho.. but i can leave with that...

if u tune in for the past 3 month or so.. korang musti tau what i am up to.. well.. after 4 months finally i huv sumthin to show fo it.. finally... but after the excitement gone n reality kicked in.. well im back to where i am now.. nowhere.. kakakkaakkka.. sungguh sad selepas all that high.. but reality it seems always huv it ways wit us.. so the truth.. gua bejaya mendapatkan offer tuh.. sum ppl told me impossible.. but i managed to proved them wrong.. i managed to proved to myself.. that i am ready fo this.. gettin accepted is big.. i know.. n i take pride on it.. cumer gua tau this is all means nuthin kalo takde financial backing.. so far it doesn't look that good.. it looks ok though.. remember.. it isnt over until the fat lady sings.. kaakkakkakakaka... shit i need to find a fat lady n kill her (no offence to fat ppl..)

where im at.. well im on the verge of makin it.. if this is american idol.. this is the final two sial.. kalo nih ncaa its the final four.. kalo this is nba.. bai.. ini game seven.. series tied 3-3.. final 13 seconds.. karl malone pegang bola sial... n yeah.. btul.. gua sekarang tgh tunggu opportunity.. nak knock the ball of his hands.. bawak half away.. tolak russel.. (yer yer mike tolak) then put up a j wit 11 seconds.. n seal the deal.. hahahahahaha.. just as the bulls i still need another 4 of my team mates to play D for that last 11 seconds... as a matter in fact, in the position im in.. i huv that four ppl.. i just hope they are willing to D-up this final few seconds.. that s all.. remember u cant do it alone.. kena ade org tolon.. even fo no.23....

mitchell n ness

a lot of u (ok.. who am i kidding).. some of u who normally read my blog.. must wonder apsal tetiber theme gua lain.. well.. u can never go wrong wit simplicity.. just like an ibook .. white n boxy.. camtuh ajer.. tapi dah cukup utk buat org jadik giler.. it depends.. i was fond to read WHEN NOTHING ELSE MATTERS : MICHAEL JORDAN LAST COMEBACK after readin the review kat amazon.. why? probably all the bashing yg die dedicate kan kat mike.. gua nak tau sejauh maner die tulis dan sejauh maner betulnyer ppl are saying about how we (mike fans) huv been blinded by the awesomeness of mike sampai luper bahwa die ade laa human like us.. aside from jordan rules.. this is one of those book.. yg citer pasal mike not as the greatest basketball tapi as human...

well.. i took the chance of reading it.. pegi MPH for two days sebab nak abiskan baca.. n i found out that betul laa tuh some review.. this book mmg cite pasal the other side of mike.. die potray mike as bad.. but not as bad bad.. to sum ppl who dont understand ball.. tak understand competativeness, challenge, dream n most importantly luv.. possibly akan agree with the author.. yes in this book mike corrupted byk decision making in the organization.. control.. berated the rookies.. teammates.. but that only shows this one quality that forever will seperate mike dgn semua org lain.. the luv of the game.. the luv in givin everything that u got for sumthin that u really believe in.. that is as simple as it gets.. as good as it gets.. that's life n that's luv....

fo those who didnt understand.. camnih aa.. gua short cut.. mike dah 2 kali retire.. both wit championship.. so after that 2 yrs die pun bapak borin.. bai nih normal bai.. this is the everyday feelin of not just great athlete.. tapi lu ngan gua org biaser pun akan rase camnih... shit man u luv doin sumthin n u huv to stop.. mmg aa rase tak bess.. so he came back as president of operations.. that found out that his team wasnt giving everything that they were supposed to.. pastuh die pun decide nak correct this.. install some pride in the game he luv.. ya ya.. semua org tau sebenanyer die gatal tangan nak main balik.. shit man.. gua pun gatal tangan.. semua org tau die nak kembali as the same mike.. u n i know that he came up wit bullshit likes i-can-accept-failure-but-i-can't-accept-not-trying punyer line... i know that he wanna do it for himself.. shit man.. that doesnt even bother me.. to tell u the truth.. i would huv done the same.. its easy really.. how can u seperate sumthin that u luv ur dear life on?...

i go broke buyin shoes.. but i still buy em.. i find ways to buy em.. he just dont know wen to stop.. cam gua.. biler kad gua dah max and gua tepakse abiskan 20 hari dlm sebulan tak makan.. tuh laa point gua utk berenti.. tapi mike tatau.. he just want assurence.. but his competitiveness got the best out of him.. his optimism yg org lain tak bole ikut.. once u've decided to do sumthin.. baik buat ngan full heart kan.. lagik lagik sumthin yg lu luv.. tapi bukan utk some ppl.. esp. his teammate.. he tried all he could.. n i could see that some frustration will turn to anger.. shit man.. gua rase benda tuh sekarang even at the smallest of all things.. apsal? sebab benda benda tuh matters to me.. it could be as small as tak dpt makan kfc.. shit man.. biler benda benda yg matters ngan diri kite ... he is human.. so wat?... i believe the book aim to state that... he is human.. there's nuthin wrong wit that.. tapi utk ckp itu as kelemahan pada mike.. well i dont think so.. to turn him into a bad guy.. well i dont think so.. he is out there trying to satisfy himself... u and i ... we r doin it...

after readin it fo two days... it is sad to know that ade satu paragraph ajer yg gua rase dpt summarize semua nih.. ( which is one reason y u shouldnt get it ).. in the final chapter.. author die tanyer mike aper yg die stare kat luar tingkap office die.. mike ckp sumtimes die nampak budak dribble bola.. the sight of which he implies, musti ade game sumwhere budak tuh nak pegi... dan betapa sunyinyer die kat office nih after bein seperated from the game... similarly.. i hope i will be given the chance to do just that.. n i dont mean that as bein in the nba... if i am mike.. i think this would be my 1st comeback.. i hope it is... no worries.. i wont be wearin no. 45... id no. is longer than that... n i promise that there will never be a 2nd comeback.. in the field i'm in.. i dont even think i need it...

it's a celeberation...

u know in the ol skool indian flicks we alwayz huv this type of storyline.. biler byk sgt adversity pastuh lu org punyer nasib selalu buruk.. pastuh hero(heroin) masuk temple pastuh make a judgement ngan god die.. giler bai.. if u got sumthin bad or u things dont go ur way.. u go to god n confront him.. giler .. wat a strong opinion.. kakakaakkkakaka... cuber lu bayangkan.. i can remember this once flick yg gua tak igt title die aper.. (ok bukan gua tanak igt.. mmg gua tak igt) biler semua suck.. hero die masuk pastuh ring bell kat luar temple .. ckp cam gangsta ngan tuhan die.. pastuh alih alih.. things work out fine... shit.. that some deep shit.. but i guess thats the movie... dont get me wrong.. im not gonna go to a mosque .. pkl beduk n confront plak.. aper lu igt gua nih giler ker.. gua citer ajer.. takde kena mengena ngan aper yg gua nak buat..

shit.. gua tau gua kena byk patient.. dan sebolehnyer mmg gua tanak libatkan sgt kepercayaan gua tehadap aper yg tejadik dlm idup gua hari hari.. gua pun tatau apsal.. tapi gua try stick to wat real n wat not.. wat should u hold on as u r beliefs n wat that is fact... coz.. conciously if u still huv the power to do something or to influence sumthin.. u huv to take that action.. or not ur in risk of not getting the results u desired.. senang ajer.. senang dan simple.. unless menda tuh dah beyond control lu.. out of bound.. n thats where i am at.. probably my avid reader dah tau dah pasal kesah gua.. dah berapa bulan dah.. dah 3 bulan .. n like bassy mase draf.. i believed 75% almost there.. tapi offer bukan cam tunggu ayam betelur bai.. ayam kalo takde org nak pecahkan telur tuh utk buat banjo.. gerenti jadik anak ayam punyer.. tapi offer frm admission still uncertain.. u dont know this bastard.. the play u.. they've been playin fo 3 mths.. wats another 1-2 months for em.. damn it...

but as i become restless.. (everyday makin teruk sial) n bored wit the current office work.. not to mention my relationship.. (which will be a hardcover of 1500 pages.. kalo gua tulis)... gua tebaca sumthin from FORTUNE magazine that i would like to share.. (no.. its not about indian flick.. n dont ask me why I am reading FORTUNE...) These are a few lines from the article : Can Nike Still Do It Without Phil Knight?

When Bowerman died in 1999 at the age of 88, his stature at Nike only grew. In this decentralized company, where self-managing is the best way forward, Bowerman is a god, and Knight is the self-anointed priest channeling his words. Liz Dolan, former VP of global marketing, once approached Knight for some help on a complicated problem. Instead of giving suggestions, Knight offered up a Talmudic tale: Once during college he had asked Bowerman for some advice in improving his running times. Bowerman replied, "Triple your speed." "That’s the kind of advice you get from Phil," says Dolan, now a host of the Satellite Sisters syndicated radio show. "He is less likely to sit down and break it down for you. He believes you can figure it out.… He focuses more on talking to you one-on-one to get the best out of you rather than setting corporate strategy per se."

Last May, though, that all changed. Knight’s oldest son, Matthew, was scuba diving in El Salvador, visiting the country on a mission for the charity he worked for, when his equipment malfunctioned. The 34-year-old died in the waters of Lake Ilopango, leaving behind a wife and two sons. Knight and his wife, Penny, were devastated. In a note to his staff, Knight told them that instead of sending him condolences, they should make a point of spending more time with their own families. "I wasn’t a good enough manager, really, is what it comes down to," says Knight. "You have to manage your time [as a parent], and it’s a pretty tough balance. It’s a hard balance, and when the kid’s not there anymore, you can’t make up for it." Those working on the CEO search noticed an immediate change. "It made him realize that there is a clock running and a calendar running, and that life is unpredictable," says one person who asked to remain anonymous.

Not that he’s finished working. The baton may be passed, but Knight, as chairman, is still going to be there, strolling around, dropping in on people and projects when he feels like it, and most important, staying in their minds, reminding them that if they have problems, all they need to do is triple their speed.

for more : http://www.kicksguide.com/articles/featured/phil-knight/phil-knight-by-daniel-roth.asp

eleven.. the magic number

well.. there's so much to talk about.. serius.. tapi aper yg gua tulis nanti menyebabkan lu pike.. yek eleh takde menda.. honestly gua tatau berapa org yg baca blog gua.. everyday gua rase sebananyer tade org bukak pun menda nih kecuali gua.. tapi disebabkan gua ade byk sgt time nak kill.. pastuh gua rase tulis kat sini cam bole tahan jugak bejaya menampakkan yg gua sedang cuber buat sumthin.. gua rase tader hal.. sebab at least gua cam buat sumthin yg bemakne.. puttin ur words into paper.. giler bai.. bemakne.. nanti biler lu baca balik pun lu rase entah aper laa gua pike time nih.. well... let me start off by saying.. giler cepat mase bejalan.. all u know sekarang baseball season dah start.. maknenyer tak lama lagik nba playoffs.. so tak alih alih akan sampai kepada pertengahan tahun dah....

tuh bukan aper laa.. look at renault.. giler sial.. everytime gua tgk F1 this season.. (actually baru 3 kali) gua akan rase betapa dasyat nyer diorg keja.. damn it.. keta tuh mmg laju nak mampus.. probably byk org tak perasan .. tapi slowly diorg mmg gettin there.. diorg start slowly dgn satu menda yg betul.. pastuh die tambah tambah tambah.. which is the right way of developing... wat about ferrari?.. well gua rase diorg dah max out.. dah max out in term of R&D.. probably diorg ade sumthin yg radikal giler tapi diorg takut nak bawak keluar.. tgk aper jadik pada BMW mase diorg keluar ngan nose cone baru.. probably time tuh sebab diorg tak peak of development.. jadik diorg tak ready lagik.. korang sure pike apsal gua citer pasal F1.. well... baca betul betul probably korang akan tangkap sumthin kot.. apsal ferrari yg dah so dominant sekrang tunggang langgang.. lack of desire ker.. atau lack of work.. sudah tentu nyer tak.. well biar gua break it down.. mase die first come up with a concept.. diorg follow concept tuh sampai laa peak of development.. which is last year punyer keta.. jadik tahun nih sepatutnyer die come up ngan sumthin yg giler babi.. bukan nose cone ajer.. gua tatau amenda laa.. tapi sumthin laa.. mayb side pods lain ker.. gua tatau.. lu org pike sendiri.. jadik sekrang diorg tak bejaya buat camtuh.. dan renault plak kat peak of development die.. tunggu laa 2 - 3 tahun lagik samada dieorg radikal enuff...

aper pasal gua cite pasal menda nih.. kakakakakaaka.. gua pun ttau.. tapi tuh one of the thought yg ade dlm kepla gua.. gua nak cite tapi tatau pada sape gua nak cite.. jadik gua hentam ajer laa kat sini... so far gua rase bagus laa sebab diorg akan lebih push development.. gua mmg org research jadik gua mmg interested nak tgk aper yg diorg bole come out utk improve machinery.. yer yer.. i studied the machinery.. lu tatau berapa byk input utk buat curve kat front wing.. semua tuh mmg facinating pada gua... besides the point.. hari jumaat gua super duper boring.. minggu lepas was frustrating.. ade some good news.. but mostly bad news.. secara tak sengaja gua dpt chat ngan potential supervisor.. (jgn pelik apsal gua cite menda nih kat sinik.. gua takde tempat nak citer.. menda nih ibarat pokok berlubang gua... raja makan dedak .. raja makan dedak).. jadik sebab gua super boring.. die bagi beberapa title buku yg kalo gua beminat bole beli.. die tak pakse pun.. (igt.. gua tade official word lagik dari diorg nih... bastard).. tapi gua tedorong oleh perasaan nak sumthin yg baru dan exciting dlm idup gua terus pegi beli buku tuh.. gua beli 2 buku ajer.. actually gua nak beli 3 yg total up to 700.. tapi nasib baik rational gua kick in.. lagipun tak perlu lepas gua review.. kakakkakakakakak.....

itu bukan main citer.. gua balik umah.. lepas gua letak buku tuh.. gua rase cam kosong nak mampus.. aper lu buat biler lu duduk sorang sorang dlm bilik takde aper nak buat?... haaa lu bawak keluar semua kasut lu ader.. touch up .. ikat elok elok pastuh susun 11 air jordans yg ko sweat, yg ko belapa.. yg ko bankrap nak beli depan ko dlm bentuk straight line dan sengetkan 15 degree... kakakkakakakakak.. gua bukan tanak letak gamba bai.. tapi sebab gua takde digital kamera.. probably gua akan buat lagik dlm this 2-3 days.. nanti kalo gua ade kamera gua letak kat sini.. (tapi jin ade peluang nak tgk.. kakakakka.. gua ckp bai priceless....) so.. gua pun tido betemankan 11 pasang air jordans... kaakkakaka.. lebih kurang tido ngan gfren for some of u.. n tido with wife for some of u... fuck that.. im sleepin wit 11 air jordans mlm tuh.. tade satu pun buat bunyik.. kakakkakakakakkkakkakaka...

gua bangun pagi tuh.. gua realize sumthin... gua realize gua dgr menda nih from the fight club : THE THINGS U OWNED END UP OWNING U... n how true it is for me..