wen nuthin else matters....
i am here... nowhere.. dulu 4 tahun lepas aku ade similar dream.. its kinda funny tho... lepas 4 tahun ko rase idup nih cycle balik kat tempat yg same.. gua tak maksudkan up n downs tapi surroundings... 4 years ago at his very moment.. gua baru graduate dari ITM dgn diploma.. i am looking for options.. either working.. sambung degree local atau sambung degree overseas... tapi biler gua terigt pasal keja, gua terigt satu menda.. well actually mase finals gua igt satu benda.. gua igt lepas last paper.. gua lepak ngan bebudak sek 8 (jin, botak, meto, azan dan etc..) kat sek 8 laaa (of course)... gua igt betapa relief nyer botak time tuh selepas menyudah kan paper QMT tak silap gua.. it was chill.. semua org kewl dan laid back seolah olah baru lepas sumthin yg pressure diorg.. well.. kalo lu org buat dip.. probably korang rase same.. sum ppl yg sama baya tinggal satu tahun ajer nak grad for bachelor.. well for us (or sum of us now) ader lagik 2 tahun....
that bring me to botak.. di kalangan kitaorg die yg mula mula keja.. lepas praktikal die stay keja ngan kompeni die ever since... gua penah tepike the same thing.. nak keja.. gua pegi carik keja.. that time jobstreet tak laa sehype sekrang.. so u got to find ur own methods... actually ade a few places yg interest me.. tapi mostly sebab gua tgk factor building ajer.. one of them was mesiniaga... i did apply.. dpt interview ngan the same manager which is my boss now... she said, i did get the job... cumer die rase gua clueless at that time.. tatau aper nak buat.. well idea gua memula sebenanyer, disebabkan mesiniaga nih besa, gua igt diorg ade duit laa nak sponsor org bachelor... gua tak kesah stay 2-3 yrs pastuh org sponsor pegi overseas which is at that time my ultimate dream... tapi it turn out diorg nih nampak ajer poyo ngan building yg semacam ini.. takde duit atau polisi pun nak buat menda menda tuh.....
finally in between conflict of working n not gettin the place i wanted overseas.. gua decide utk sambung local.. 4 years later?... gua berada at the same place cumer the curcumstances are different now... gua bukan nak apply keja mesiniaga.. sebaliknyer gua mmg dah keja sini... (wit the same boss tapi)... gua dah dpt offer dari universiti... n gua betul betul commited utk buat benda nih.... bukan utk pegi overseas.. tapi utk dpt phd dan menjadi researcher yg bejaya... it is alwayz sumthin yg gua nak buat dari dulu... well a lot of ppl say that.. tapi bukan a lot of ppl dah try almost everythin utk sampai tu that conclusion.... bukan semua org dah try keja kat every place that seems possible dlm bidang die... then realized that for so long die sebenanyer suker buat satu benda nih.. cumer die tak seda.. lebih kurang cam dlm cite cinta keleng aaa....
well he i am at it again.... cumer this time gua takde finance plak.. kakakkkaka.... semakin hari semakin dekat gua utk pecaya the awful realiti menda menda nih... mungkin it is not meant to be... sumthin yg gua burried for 4 yrs... gua alwayz pecaya if u huv dream.. n u huv will n strength to do wat ever it takes.. then probably wit some blessing u'll get wat u want.... after 4yrs hold on to that.... tapi it seems after one full cycle ... wat matters most is gua still kat sini.. out of ideas n options dah... or simply gua rase malas dan penat... probably nih laa time gua realize yg this is the end... stop trying.. stop dreamin n just live ur life as attended to.. in a way.. selepas semua menda yg jadik this past 2-3 month, sekarang gua rase gua kena belaja except aper yg gua ader dan make the best out of it.. there's no point in wishing anymore..
mungkin juga.. mungkin nanti... these past days gua alwayz try to calm myself.. tho it is still possible.. tapi kite kena accept the fact sumtimes.. walaupun lu down 15 points in less than a minute.. sumtimes u cant avoid the inevitable... it is meant to be...
that bring me to botak.. di kalangan kitaorg die yg mula mula keja.. lepas praktikal die stay keja ngan kompeni die ever since... gua penah tepike the same thing.. nak keja.. gua pegi carik keja.. that time jobstreet tak laa sehype sekrang.. so u got to find ur own methods... actually ade a few places yg interest me.. tapi mostly sebab gua tgk factor building ajer.. one of them was mesiniaga... i did apply.. dpt interview ngan the same manager which is my boss now... she said, i did get the job... cumer die rase gua clueless at that time.. tatau aper nak buat.. well idea gua memula sebenanyer, disebabkan mesiniaga nih besa, gua igt diorg ade duit laa nak sponsor org bachelor... gua tak kesah stay 2-3 yrs pastuh org sponsor pegi overseas which is at that time my ultimate dream... tapi it turn out diorg nih nampak ajer poyo ngan building yg semacam ini.. takde duit atau polisi pun nak buat menda menda tuh.....
finally in between conflict of working n not gettin the place i wanted overseas.. gua decide utk sambung local.. 4 years later?... gua berada at the same place cumer the curcumstances are different now... gua bukan nak apply keja mesiniaga.. sebaliknyer gua mmg dah keja sini... (wit the same boss tapi)... gua dah dpt offer dari universiti... n gua betul betul commited utk buat benda nih.... bukan utk pegi overseas.. tapi utk dpt phd dan menjadi researcher yg bejaya... it is alwayz sumthin yg gua nak buat dari dulu... well a lot of ppl say that.. tapi bukan a lot of ppl dah try almost everythin utk sampai tu that conclusion.... bukan semua org dah try keja kat every place that seems possible dlm bidang die... then realized that for so long die sebenanyer suker buat satu benda nih.. cumer die tak seda.. lebih kurang cam dlm cite cinta keleng aaa....
well he i am at it again.... cumer this time gua takde finance plak.. kakakkkaka.... semakin hari semakin dekat gua utk pecaya the awful realiti menda menda nih... mungkin it is not meant to be... sumthin yg gua burried for 4 yrs... gua alwayz pecaya if u huv dream.. n u huv will n strength to do wat ever it takes.. then probably wit some blessing u'll get wat u want.... after 4yrs hold on to that.... tapi it seems after one full cycle ... wat matters most is gua still kat sini.. out of ideas n options dah... or simply gua rase malas dan penat... probably nih laa time gua realize yg this is the end... stop trying.. stop dreamin n just live ur life as attended to.. in a way.. selepas semua menda yg jadik this past 2-3 month, sekarang gua rase gua kena belaja except aper yg gua ader dan make the best out of it.. there's no point in wishing anymore..
mungkin juga.. mungkin nanti... these past days gua alwayz try to calm myself.. tho it is still possible.. tapi kite kena accept the fact sumtimes.. walaupun lu down 15 points in less than a minute.. sumtimes u cant avoid the inevitable... it is meant to be...
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